Heart

I'm sitting here alone on a Saturday night watching The Notebook. What greater movie to watch when you're lovesick and dreaming of a fairy tale romance? Not. It just makes you feel worse- more lonely.
I've struggled so long with not having that romantic, head over heels, kind of love. The story book romance they could make into a movie. My problem is that I've watched too many movies like The Notebook. Every day I wake up thinking, "maybe this will be the day my prince charming reveals himself." But, every day I'm brought back to reality. Now is just not my time.
Today my family laid my Uncle Tiny to rest. As I sat there hearing everyone share their stories of this teeny man with a big heart and a beautiful grin, I couldn't help but think of what my funeral will be like. Will I have a husband standing there next to my coffin, heartbroken by his loss? Or, will the room be filled with all my family who never left my side? I know I'm only 22, but with each day I realize more and more that maybe I will never marry... maybe that's not what God has planned for me. BUT, what God does have planned for me, and has already given me, is a beautiful family who I know I will always be able to depend on.
I've had a lot of heart break from friends and a man, but my family has never let me down. So, who says that man standing next to my coffin has to be my husband, maybe he'll be my brother...my cousin...my nephew... who knows. I do know that whoever it is will truly love me and will do all that is in his power to ensure he never hurts me or causes me heartbreak.
That is what love is.