I am not. But He is.

"Don't copy the behaviors and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will know what God wants you to do, and you will know how good and pleasing and perfect his will really is."
Romans 12:2

I've never claimed to be perfect, in fact, I'll be the first person to tell you that sometimes I can be down right evil. Yesterday was one of those days that proved how human I truly am. I said some things that hurt another person, not to mention many others in relation. As the day unfolded and conversations were had, all I kept thinking to myself was what I did and said was not who I was created to be. Yet, we live in a sinful, fallen world, and I am no exception to all the Eves who walk this earth, continuously striving to do the right thing and be the best she can be in the eyes of the Father, but inevitably eating the fruit from the forbidden tree.
Despite the mistakes and hurtful things I was burdened with yesterday, I was able to face today because of grace. I know that the things that were done are simply not forgotten by those impacted by them, but they are forgiven by the One who is sinless. I have been wiped clean and given the chance (for the 7 times 70th time!) to change my way of thinking and to fight the temptations of this world that tell me gossiping and slandering is fun, but instead to be the one who is strong enough to admit that she was wrong and strive to set an example of what a godly woman would do: Take her sins and make them a testimony.
I started this year out saying that I am going to do things to achieve my dreams. Not one single dream on my "list" can be achieved without God's influence and direction. Each ambition that has been laid on my heart I am confident has come from God and I know that by Him alone my dreams will come true. However, if I'm still trying to please the world and "fit in", my view of what God wants for me and which step I need to take next will be clouded, and I'll wind up living life as I have for the past 24 years... with unfulfilled dreams.
Changing the way one thinks is no easy task. It will take discipline and self-control. It will take determination and will-power. But most importantly, it will take a deep desire in wanting to chase after the Lord and His perfect ways. No, I will never be perfect, but I can be better. I can be a person who is more concerned with pleasing the Lord and working towards her goals rather than a woman who merely has a place in this world.